time on my knees...

I haven't been blogging much this week-- it's our local county fair...week ~
Fair week brings back bad memories-- Jessica got e coli from a simple trip to the fair.
It makes me sad that I am un-able to see the fair as a GREAT place to be., I find myself yelling sarcastically at the TV, when the news people are at the fair, talking about all the "fun stuff" to do~
I have often thought about going down and walking on the sidewalk with a sign... but then I think what purpose would I serve? maybe I'd be on TV again... but I can't imagine that people would listen any better than they have in the past...
I know that some people are more likely to get e coli.... and Jessica just happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time, and yet I want an apology-- I want compensation....
But I also know that -- none of what I want... is what God has planned, and so I find myself praying and waiting --
It's not really bad... all this emotion and upheaval... but I am not sure how to move on-- when I see a constant reminder on Jessica's neck (she has scars from her main line...)
I worry that the H1N1 virus will be detrimental for our family, I hope that I can get her the vaccine--
I'm thinking that maybe I just need to do some (more) time on my knees....
If you want to read the whole story about Jessica and her last trip to the fair-- click on one of the labels below... and get your kleenex.