Monday, February 1, 2010

I hate it, but I love it~

Because of my kids-- I have learned to be the resource mom.
I hate it -- but I love it...

When Jessica was born I had to learn all about being the mom of a preemie-- I had to learn about how to navigate the medical jargon, I had to learn just how precious the caring staff could be, I had to learn how to follow my Mom's instinct and -- sometimes I had to voice my opinion.
I remember I felt like I had been left off on a deserted island... like the people in LOST.
I kept wishin and hoping that I could have someone to call who had been there-- done that ...
The nurses, staff and the social workers helped--
 but none could really answer my difficult questions--
How long will this last?
Will she be normal?
How am I going to get used to this ..."feeling" ?
And
Why?

Then when we found out about the E coli,  the Dr's kept saying,
 "Well she's a case study of one--- We don't know for sure if her kidney's were ever normal-- and really we don't know if her normal is strong enough." 
So, when Shane was born and his behavior as an infant was not -- even in my experience "typical--"
I felt like I deserved a T-shirt... been there done that... I knew who to call -- or at least I knew what agencies to start by calling.
Other mom's that I met thru my circle of friends would often call me for help
-- I enjoy helping when I can, but this was very weird for me--
I was learning how to just be ...a mom-- and yet I was instead,  this person with information.
I finally decided that I could just go ahead... and give help when I could ~
I still get phone calls -- I need help -- who do I call and how do I ask for what I need.

This weekend the kids and I went down to the school to ..."play" tennis, while we were there Shane-- proceeded to tell another little boy...
 all about his "skateboard shoes, and how his wii is just the best thing EVER...."
I found myself talking to the mom and the next thing I know I am talking about the school and how it's great this year-- I go on and on... about how EEP (the pre-school) is just over there in that building; I talk about how you can call EC Cares and get your child tested -- all of this is a bit much-- now that I think  back I hope I didn't freak out that mom... I am not sure that I sounded like a "sweet" passionate mom...
I may of sounded like highly skilled Mom on a Mission to convert all to MY WAY OF THINKING!

So, I guess I ended up this weekend hating that I knew all this,
STUFF-- and yet Loving it that I knew where to get information--
  • and still I am not done with my search for how best to not to pull my hair out~ 
  • or how to navigate the web to find what I need quickly-- rather than sifting thru a ton of sites...
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So, anyway-- that was our weekend!
Happy Monday...
prayers for HennHouse,Travis and family,Sally Jo in China, and Haiti

1 comment:

HennHouse said...

Isn't it amazing how much you learn through your kids?!

Thanks for all your prayers, Stacey...

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